I wanna talk about me

 The biggest part of me not posting here is my emotional state. However I will say that I am on the mend. I just haven't had the energy to put stuff up here but I think that is going to change. The CBT class I have been involved in has really helped and I am glad I have done it. I have one more week since we got a bit behind in the course material. I know intellectually I'm not the only depressed person in the world but being in a room for the past two months with others like me to varying degrees makes a huge difference. 

I did a bit of an impulse purchase but things just aligned well with my new bass guitar Bubba. After asking the bassist in Little Me about playing it just inspired me to press forward. I even have a small practice amp that I can plug headphones or a speaker into and found a tablature website so I've been playing songs already. I have managed to try practicing every night for the most part.

Gaming continues although for a couple of reasons I have dropped the Cam Mage game, sticking with both Vampire games and Changeling as well as independent Mage and Changeling games. That has been keeping me pretty busy.

After doing LIttle Me I feel I am ready to get back to auditioning. Way back with the early depression stages I just had to walk away from it for a while. It is good to know I have been missed.

As far as being back here, I'm not promising anything but I will try. In the end this is mostly for me but others I know find it enjoyable

 Slowly but surely my solo trip to LA / Vegas is on the horizon. I've downloaded two city guides for my Ipod, found vegassolo.com for tips. Now all I need is stuff to do in LA for the evenings after the Reality Rocks convention.

I will admit travelling on my own is a bit of a scary proposition but if I plan well, stay safe and I know that if I have to get back to my hotel I'll just take a cab I think I'll be ok.

To think I actually have the ability to travel now.  Granted I've been to LA once for work years ago and the usual Bellingham / Seattle type trips but to go on this adventure is amazing. To make things even better Julie and I are hitting New Orleans for the Grand Masquerade in September. I'll do my best to keep sending photo updates and checkins for whatever I am doing.

I get to see Michael who I used to work with at Virgin when in LA. the one sucky thing is the day after I leave Vegas, that's when he gets there. No justice in this world I tell ya.

 Yesterday was a pre-interview for the 12 week Depression CBT class I should be starting in February. I figure it's a good place to start.

Started up a TFSA last year and this month is the first month a portion of my RSP benefit is going to that which should net me clost to $1400 a year in savings. It's going to make for a small tax refund next year, but it's worth it. I want saving damn it. Very close to getting the Visa paid off with a slight detour after buying a new mattress this last weekend. It was necessary and it's been so comfortable so far.

Did a pre-calculation on my taxes and so far my refund is looking pretty good. I don't want to say for sure until I get my official T4 in case I added some stuff up wrong. If I do get what it says I'm getting so far it should well take care of my two trips this year and maybe that back tattoo I've been wanting to get. At the very least the trips are good.

Other than that, trying to get more organized at work, back to the gym and just carrying on.

 Really tired after helping dangerbrat move but it was worth it. She has a nice place with access to natural light and Little bit has room to run about. I am looking forward to when it's all put together. I was able to donate a couch to her as I was taking advantage of having a truck available to finally get the one from my Dad's place. It was a bit of an adventure trying to get it out. First path didn't work but the 2nd one was just fine. It involved removing doors and whatnot but on the whole it was done and I have a couch I can stretch out on and it will be more comfortable if someone needs to crash at my place.

Still waiting to hear from Lore Krill but just knowing I'm on the waiting list continues to be a comfort. In some ways I am jealous of dangerbrat 's new place but I know mine is eventually on the way.

Rest at home tonight then theoretically back to the gym tomorrow. this is in NO WAY to be interpreted as a new year's resolution. Being after the holidays just makes sense to start again.

 I was hoping to go to Rascals tonight but a cold started last night which really sucks. Today will be a day at home with Liptons soup and mint tea to try to get rid of this as soon as I can.

Just counting the days until the office is closed for the holidays

I am overall healthy. Blood pressure excellent, normal cholesterol, normal thyroid so all I really am is heavy.

 but you can always find me on twitter @TheOneDeej

Been dealing internally with self image. I do believe one thing keeping me away from a few things is running into people I haven't seen in a while and them seeing me back to being larger. I know I will deal with this eventually but I have to fix my mind first before any of that is going to be successful. To that end in January I am starting a 12 week group session on dealing with depression. All covered by MSP which is great.

Otherwise I live day by day and starting to get some financial things in order. Started a TFSA so once I pay off Wells Fargo for my DVR (only $140 left so I figure I may as well get it done) then each payday I put aside the $20 I used to do for WF and $13 for Hydro. This means on the 15th $20 goes into the TFSA and at the end $13 goes in. I am also taking my 8% contribution for investments and putting 5% to RSP and 3% to the TFSA.

Planning on going to Montreal in March for a Camarilla convention.

that's about me in a nutshell.

 I have been approved for membership at the Lore Krill co-op! Now comes the waiting to actually get in but to know that I will once again be living downtown, for not much more than I am paying now and I can have a cat makes me happy beyond all measure.

7 pm is my interview for the Lore Krill Co-op. I really want to get this so please send positive thoughts my way around this time. 

I really, really, really, really want this.

While usually I'd be doing pride things today, after yesterday i am just too damned tired to bother. If I didn't have a game tonight I probably would have. Spent all day with Julie helping her with car stuff and other errands. In particular being a guide to the joys of the Vancouver transit system.

 I am a bit upset this morning as I put in my new prescription to the Safeway before breakfast and I had to pay $163 because according to the insurance records I am not signed up for fair pharmacare, which I KNOW I am. As I had only one pill left I had to do a Visa cash advance to pay for it. I know it will get taken care of but as it's the long weekend I have to wait until tuesday to do anything about it. Just when I made a nice payment on my Visa a couple of days ago. I just have to let it go until i can get it fixed.