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I really hate this

Apr. 18th, 2013 | 07:40 pm

You ask someone is something ok. They say it is. Then the next day you find out it wasn't ok.

Why the fuck can't they just say NO. Instead I have to get bitched at the next day because I should have been able to "read" that it wasn't ok. If I ask you if something is ok and you say it isn't I can take it.

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countdown

Jul. 22nd, 2012 | 11:55 am

On Saturday, I move into my new home. Yesterday I was there just to take a last look around, see what the previous owner left behind and try and plan where things will go.

Looking at the pile of boxes currently to my left, its weird how the contents of your life just compact into those cardboard cubes. Still have the last bits of stuff I need through the week left to do, but that will be done on Thursday.

Just need to make it through the work week and Wednesday its officially mine!

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the continuation

Jun. 19th, 2012 | 01:14 pm
location: Canada, Burnaby
mood: accomplished

After some drama with the offer acceptance, that being the seller deciding to go golfing and be uncontactable through most of Friday, I have acceptance of my offer of full asking for the condo. Had to rush back to the office after shopping with my Dad on Saturday to get tine paperwork signed and in to my realtor but it was a done deal by then.
First National seems to like me and my 785 credit score to give me a mortgage. Just working on some final details as my broker drew up the papers based on a 5% down payment rather than 10%. Inspection of the unit is scheduled for Monday afternoon which had an interesting twist. I was in a bidding war for 307 and my backup plan unit was 210. I win the bidding war and have Nancy schedule the inspection. Turns out the competing bidder is having 210 inspected by the same company on Thursday! I don't know if this will result in savings on my part but the only thing needing to be inspected on Monday is the unit itself.
Getting quotes for condo insurance and it seems affordable so far. Just waiting on if there is any other subject removals on the purchase agreement after we review the strata minutes. 
All in all it looks like the purchase of my condo is a done deal. I am putting that out in the universe as the only thing time sensitive is the withdrawal of the RSP funds on time so I can have the $8000 deposit ready on June 28th

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yep, its been a while

Jun. 13th, 2012 | 09:16 pm
mood: weirdweird

In my head a lot the last while. Making significant life changes, including going off medication.

I've been through something where I thought I found the one and then it gets taken away in the most cowardly manner possible. After a while, it really only meant I missed the crazy, passionate, throw down and fuck my brains out sex. It did end with a bit of clarity in discovering, or perhaps confirming what I probably already knew, that my submissive self is a toy. Specifically in rubber.

Its been a while since I met someone in April over the easter weekend. It is our intention to get together for he can take my toy being to the next level. It will happen, I am going to make sure of it.

Another bit of weirdness, and I can't quite recall exactly what we were doing that day, but a stop over at United Buy and Sell to look at options turned into buying a TV with 13 months to pay.

On the way back to Julie's place somehow we got to talking about home buying again and she told me about using RSP funds as a down payment. Next thing you know I am pre-approved for a mortgage, meeting with a realtor and looking at condos. In New Westminster of all places. I came to a realization that I could be happy without the down town condo? 

I have made an offer on one today. A place I will own and can do anything I want with. I can have up to two cats which I will never give up for someone again. They have until friday at 11 to accept or make a counter offer. 

Is this growing up?

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yeah, it's been a while again

May. 25th, 2011 | 11:49 am
location: Canada, Vancouver
mood: optimisticoptimistic
music: My Humps

 The biggest part of me not posting here is my emotional state. However I will say that I am on the mend. I just haven't had the energy to put stuff up here but I think that is going to change. The CBT class I have been involved in has really helped and I am glad I have done it. I have one more week since we got a bit behind in the course material. I know intellectually I'm not the only depressed person in the world but being in a room for the past two months with others like me to varying degrees makes a huge difference. 

I did a bit of an impulse purchase but things just aligned well with my new bass guitar Bubba. After asking the bassist in Little Me about playing it just inspired me to press forward. I even have a small practice amp that I can plug headphones or a speaker into and found a tablature website so I've been playing songs already. I have managed to try practicing every night for the most part.

Gaming continues although for a couple of reasons I have dropped the Cam Mage game, sticking with both Vampire games and Changeling as well as independent Mage and Changeling games. That has been keeping me pretty busy.

After doing LIttle Me I feel I am ready to get back to auditioning. Way back with the early depression stages I just had to walk away from it for a while. It is good to know I have been missed.

As far as being back here, I'm not promising anything but I will try. In the end this is mostly for me but others I know find it enjoyable

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travel

Mar. 13th, 2011 | 09:51 pm

 Slowly but surely my solo trip to LA / Vegas is on the horizon. I've downloaded two city guides for my Ipod, found vegassolo.com for tips. Now all I need is stuff to do in LA for the evenings after the Reality Rocks convention.

I will admit travelling on my own is a bit of a scary proposition but if I plan well, stay safe and I know that if I have to get back to my hotel I'll just take a cab I think I'll be ok.

To think I actually have the ability to travel now.  Granted I've been to LA once for work years ago and the usual Bellingham / Seattle type trips but to go on this adventure is amazing. To make things even better Julie and I are hitting New Orleans for the Grand Masquerade in September. I'll do my best to keep sending photo updates and checkins for whatever I am doing.

I get to see Michael who I used to work with at Virgin when in LA. the one sucky thing is the day after I leave Vegas, that's when he gets there. No justice in this world I tell ya.

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progress of sorts

Jan. 18th, 2011 | 11:09 am

 Yesterday was a pre-interview for the 12 week Depression CBT class I should be starting in February. I figure it's a good place to start.

Started up a TFSA last year and this month is the first month a portion of my RSP benefit is going to that which should net me clost to $1400 a year in savings. It's going to make for a small tax refund next year, but it's worth it. I want saving damn it. Very close to getting the Visa paid off with a slight detour after buying a new mattress this last weekend. It was necessary and it's been so comfortable so far.

Did a pre-calculation on my taxes and so far my refund is looking pretty good. I don't want to say for sure until I get my official T4 in case I added some stuff up wrong. If I do get what it says I'm getting so far it should well take care of my two trips this year and maybe that back tattoo I've been wanting to get. At the very least the trips are good.

Other than that, trying to get more organized at work, back to the gym and just carrying on.

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new year, new couch

Jan. 4th, 2011 | 04:49 pm
location: Canada, Burnaby
mood: tiredtired
music: Galaxie 80's channel

 Really tired after helping dangerbrat move but it was worth it. She has a nice place with access to natural light and Little bit has room to run about. I am looking forward to when it's all put together. I was able to donate a couch to her as I was taking advantage of having a truck available to finally get the one from my Dad's place. It was a bit of an adventure trying to get it out. First path didn't work but the 2nd one was just fine. It involved removing doors and whatnot but on the whole it was done and I have a couch I can stretch out on and it will be more comfortable if someone needs to crash at my place.

Still waiting to hear from Lore Krill but just knowing I'm on the waiting list continues to be a comfort. In some ways I am jealous of dangerbrat 's new place but I know mine is eventually on the way.

Rest at home tonight then theoretically back to the gym tomorrow. this is in NO WAY to be interpreted as a new year's resolution. Being after the holidays just makes sense to start again.

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ugh

Dec. 18th, 2010 | 03:21 pm

 I was hoping to go to Rascals tonight but a cold started last night which really sucks. Today will be a day at home with Liptons soup and mint tea to try to get rid of this as soon as I can.

Just counting the days until the office is closed for the holidays

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despite my weight

Nov. 25th, 2010 | 09:51 am

I am overall healthy. Blood pressure excellent, normal cholesterol, normal thyroid so all I really am is heavy.

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