thedeej

Each day at work is stress, sadness, anger, frustration and just trying to cope.

The immediate decision is do I feel like sauteing and onion to add to some Salisbury Steak or do I just be plain lazy

The long term one is do I continue with Fitness World. It made sense when I was downtown but I have two pools within reasonable distance and one with a pretty good fitness centre as well. I will grant that it's twice the price of what I pay monthly for FW but it's so hard to get to, especially with the two locations with the pool closest are still pretty damn far.

I guess it all comes down to which I will actually use. I know I can't pay for both.

Board Games are So Gay are back at Rhizome Café, 317 E Broadway. I plan to be there on saturday the 24th

Almost over.

Aside from that had an interesting time at the Exploratorium at the Libido Lounge. Didn't do as many  cupping demos as I thought but I did get to use the sliding technique on a Bigirlsvancouver friend as I knew she could take it. The massage oil worked very well and it will take a few days for things to clear up but she had a great time. This particular time a bit of lactic fluid came out when using the cups on her nipples.

During a slow period I got brave enough to try a couple of needles with Reg. Pretty intense and haven't quite made up my mind if I will do it again. the headrush was great I will say.

I just have to stop thinking about certain things until I have to deal again on Monday.

At least I can be productive by renaming a bunch of songs on the Zen then converting some Nik Kershaw albums from real media to cd then to the Zen. All that's left if making sure the album names are right.

all in all though, I'd rather be fucking right now

alone tonight. apparently insomnia but getting together in future. fuck!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11

Something cute to cheer me up. Was reasonably mellow at work but who knows how long that will last. Tomorrow I must make it through and get to my weekend.

that's about it

What a wonderful night at Rope and Grope. Tons of people there, many of whom melted with the massage glove. The main purpose for being there was of course the great guy I met on Saturday who I shall have over to my place on Saturday night. Having him to look forward to will help me get through the next couple of days I'm sure. So much potential it's exciting. He's a fabulous kisser and cuddler. Squee!

I've given official notice that I won't be at the Dragonfly's Den anymore as an employee. Given how my day job is at the moment, I have to concentrate on surviving that. It wasn't an easy decision to make but I had to do it. 

So the boss has left and the office is in chaos and I am caught in the middle in a place with people with their own agendas and not knowing who I can trust. I am taking tomorrow off work to get my mind clear and see if I can stop breaking into tears every five mintues. I don't want to walk from the bus stop to work and have a panic attack.

the absolute one thing I didn't want to happen has happened. I'm holding off on saying exactly what yet but I have been crying a lot today and will probably cry more and be in quite the mood for the next little while and hating my job even more.

it's especially angering when people don't appreciate what they have

So I'm all set to go to my improv workshop and hoping to nab a cheap coffee at the 7-11. As in this new place I have not only a deadbold but a door knob lock I have been of course been engaging the knob first before closing the door.

It would help actually having my keys.

They were on the table when I thought I had put them in my pouch. turns out it was only near it. I was eventually able to get the Manager to let me in and I got a freebie. Apparently they charge you if you get locked out. You can be sure I won't doing that again.

Went for a swim and now just trying to decompress for who knows what awaits me at work in the morning.

I finally got around to going and I am very glad I did. the night didn't quite get off to the best start as I missed my bus connections and got there later than I should then mistaking what was to be used as something to put a bag on as something to kneel on and I broke it it was quite frustrating at first. Surprisingly I ran into an unexpected friend there and gave him and his friend a spanking lesson. I also met this really cute guy I feel I have a great connection with. He likes both Showgirls and Orgazmo! He even once went to a Halloween party as Choada boy! I am in lust. We're both going to be at RnG on Wednesday and traded numbers.

the new MP3 player is fabulous

so I had officially given up on the Virgin Pulse MP3 player. After thinking I had a fix with transfering  files to the SD card via the slot in my laptop, it would only play the first 29 songs. I had intended to just buy a lower priced Creative 2GB player I got a great deal on the 8 GB version of the Creative Zen that has video capability as well. It was already on sale but as they had a out of box one I got an extra 10% off I broke down and really treated myself. All the songs I have are just being synced onto it. Taking a bit of time but that's to be expected.

Work remains an evil, dark place to be. So many dark things going on behind the scenes it's suffocating. I hate being trapped like this but a gal's gotta eat and live. At least some people are starting to fight back so maybe things will explode and get better. I can only hope for it's effecting everything in my life. I get home and I just want to pass out from all the stress. Stress impedes my fat loss and my general well being and I really really hate it. The one person I didn't want to leave on the Executive Board did. I can't really blame him but I really wish he didn't. I can only hope the other good people don't follow for then everything will go in the crapper.

You would think some busses would come more often, but apparently not. I had to wait so long for the damn bus that I took a moment to shop as I needed coffee but damn it mucked up the rest of my plans. I was hoping to get to Restraining Order at the Libido Lounge but I didn't get home until 8 so that fucked that up. At least I am nice and freshly waxed :)

Let me make it through tomorrow, that's all I ask. Get me to my weekend which was originally supposed to involve and audition but they asked for $10 for the pianist. Sorry bitch but I do not PAY to audition. that's absolutely ridiculous.

they wouldn't take them back at walmart so if you could use then I will sell one for $15 or both for $25

I had Silky over for some fun and we went over some of the kink drama and he really helped me get my mind straight. If only things could be good at work. One of the group in charge (not office staff) resigned while I was away. The one guy I most did not want to go, but he did. this does make me kinda scared as to what will happen in the future.

I can at least now make my reservations for VCON and the room rates are really much less expensive and have a fridge and microwave for $99 per night! Granted it's in Surrey but I really do remember that hotel being pretty good, provided they got the elevators fixed up.

tomorrow I may go swimming or do laundry, I haven't decided which. I should probably go to Walmart to return those bad bras I bought.

Tomorrow, in fact the whole week is I believe going to be insane due to not only meeting prep, but being off for a week and probably constitutional stuff to type up.

Too much crap going on when all I want to do is go out and have fun. been hiding from it all and not sure if I want to resurface.

Getting ready for another reinstall of windows on the desktop, see if that solves the constant rebooting problem. As I recently did the CD burning they're all now on my laptop, as the other stuff I had is still on disc so those aren't a worry. I did realize however I hadn't done all my Karaoke tracks so I'm taking care of that right now. going to see if I can find some free partitioning software so I can combine a couple of drives. Maybe that will help the problem as well. Worst comes to worst I just repartition everything which of course will need an extensive backup. Eventually the stuff on the laptop I'll plunk onto DVD's for an extra backup. I wouldn't be able to recover much as I gave away all theCD's, but that's ok

I did finally get my knives sharpened and I have this overwhelming desire to chop something. Maybe I'll do up some carrots later. For now still enjoying my time off. Not getting as much exercise as I had planned (read none at all) but it's still getting stuff done. like sleep.

After a couple of weeks of phone tag  I have now in my possession the Totally 80's edition of Trivial Pursuit. In the exit from Rossland the core game was his and besides the TV Edition I just didn't have the board. I have that now. Anyone interested in a fun Trivia night at my place?

Other than that did a fair bit of walking today. Went to Steeps to restock my After Seven tea and stay in the place for once for a cup and a nummy cheese scone. After that I walked to Cambie then downtown. After getting the delayed from my traditional Saturday cleaning done and two loads of laundry in the dryer the rest of my day is just to relax. this is my own full day to me as dress rehearsal is tomorrow then shows the rest of the week.

Although I have to miss the Naughty Party at the Libido Lounge (http://www.libidoevents.com) I can make the Nooner daytime play / social party tomorrow.